Thursday, 23 September 2021

M Michele's Musings

Too Many Roaches?

I arrived at church on Sunday to find a huge wood roach sitting at the top of the pew where I sit most Sundays.  I was standing next to Melonie and said to her “Look at what’s in my seat!”    Melonie beckoned to Greg who was sitting two rows behind asking him to do something with the roach.  I, in the meantime, had removed my sandal and began to slowly creep my way to the offender with every intention of killing the trespasser.  Thankfully, Greg got up to help but then like most men, he jokingly waved his hand at the roach making it scurry.    I immediately stopped my approach in dismay.  I let out a stifled scream and was ready to bolt the other way but he smiled at us and quickly scooped up the roach with lightening speed.  He walked

outside, let the roach free, came back and calmly sat down like nothing exciting had transpired. The truth is I am deathly afraid of roaches.  I had my sandal off and was considering trying to hit him but I really didn’t want to. I was going to do what I had to do in order to put my stuff down.  When confronted with roaches, I always act brave but in truth, even when I do approach a roach with a weapon I am too afraid to get close and usually end up missing.  Then the roach escapes to haunt me another time.  I was amazed at Greg’s composure through the whole ordeal.  I have never in my life seen male nor female pick up a roach to discard it.  Of course this set the wheels of my mind spinning.  I found a wonderful little parallel in this little happening.

I was reminded that we all have fears.  Those fears are not just limited to little creatures that lurk in the night.  Before I came to Christ I was filled with fears.  Fear ruled my life in every area; physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually.  Just like my fear of the roach stopped me from walking forward and actually taking charge of the situation so fears stop us from going forward in life.  Just like the fear of that roach caused a scream to involuntarily erupt and my feet to be on the ready for a fast get away so the fears we have will do no less.  Fears cause negative reactions to burst forth.  They cause us to back up and run from things we know that we should do or deal with.  I can’t explain the amazement I felt when Greg scooped up that roach. I thought “Wow!  Could I ever get to that place?”  Now, I am not real sure about that ever happening but I do know that with God’s help I have started to “scoop up” my greatest fears and let them go.  I have learned to release the fears into God’s hands.  Fears that long dominated my life are no longer in control.  I learned to replace fear with faith in God, trust in God, His goodness and His love for me.

Fear is the exact opposite of faith.  Faith motivates, encourages and urges forward.     When fear dominates us we will not move forward in obedience to God’s callings on our life. We put up imaginary barriers and negative thoughts control our actions or lack of action. Pushing past our fears is not always easy and sometimes we even think that it is impossible. Of course that is a lie and the Bible says “For with God nothing shall be impossible.” God desires that we begin to let go of and release those fears so that He can use us for His kingdom. The Bible tells us in 2 Timothy 1:7, “For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.” Romans 8:15 says, “For you did not receive a spirit that makes you a slave again to fear, but you received the Spirit of sonship. And by him we cry, "Abba, Father."” The choice of words in Romans 8:15 is so true. Fear is a hard, unfair slave master and we are driven to obey the fears that dwell within our hearts. We truly become a slave to those fears.

I have learned that there are key steps to defeating the fears in our life and it was seen in parallel that Sunday at church.   Greg took the bug and released him. He then came back into the church and calmly sat down. He seemed to be in perfect peace after he released the bug. This was a perfect picture of exactly what we need to do. The first step is to release the fear into God’s hand. We need to begin to trust God and have faith that He will help us overcome our fears. How do we do this? We must come into the “sanctuary of God.” We must come into His presence and His peace. We must rest and trust Him.   Finally, we are to obey Him. If fears keep us from doing something God desires us to do we must take steps of faith and obedience toward whatever God is leading us to do.

Fears often loom larger than life in our eyes. Why should a little wood roach no larger than 2” scare me, a 5’7” woman? Why? Because of the fear that looms larger than life in my mind! Much like the ten men sent to spy out the Promised Land. God had given them marvelous promises and yet in Numbers 13:33 they said, “And there we saw the giants, the sons of Anak, of the giants: and we were in our own sight as grasshoppers, and so we were in their sight.” They had seen God do miraculous feats on their behalf but they didn’t trust that He would continue to be on their side and they let fear stop them from doing God’s will. Their fear also kept them from the blessings that God desired to bring into their lives. Worse yet, their fear stopped everyone that was involved with them from receiving as well. They, and all that listened to them, were left in the wilderness for forty years until the last one died because of disobedience that stemmed in part from fear. We often think that fear doesn’t hurt anyone but ourselves but that is not true. Our fears often influence and affect those around us. Fear stops us from doing God’s will and touching lives for God’s glory.

The most wonderful thing that I have discovered in letting go of my fears is that they were much smaller and insignificant than they first seemed. Once I made the choice to step on, over and past fear and walk in obedience, faith and trust those things that were holding me back no longer had dominance in my life. I am now free to walk in obedience to God’s calling on my life with a joy and excitement without fear and trepidation of heart. Ephesians 2:10 tells us, “For we are his workmanship, created in Christ Jesus unto good works, which God hath before ordained that we should walk in them.” You are special to God and He has purpose for your life. Don’t let fear stop you from going forward in what God has ordained for your life. He loves you and desires to heal you and free you from every fear that may be stopping you from walking forward in Him.   Will you give Him the “roaches,” the fears, in your life?   Will you trust Him today? Will you walk in obedience toward Him today? He is lovingly waiting for you to let go and find refuge within the sanctuary of His care.

Love in Christ, Michele

Columnist: Michele Abshire


Michele Abshire is a housewife, mother, grandmother, and full time legal assistant. She has been published in Lake Charles, Louisiana publications, Christian Star Newspaper and Gumbeaux Magazine.  

Michele began writing notes of encouragement to people God put on her heart which led her in the direction of writing short encouraging stories, letters, essays and analogies.  This quickly became a ministry for her.  

Michele's vision is to reach people with encouraging messages that will lift their heart and bring joy for sorrow and hope for discouragement. Michele enjoys your feedback so leave a comment in the form at the bottom of the page or email her at



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