Thursday, 23 September 2021

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Things Are Not Falling Into Place

It was recently that I was overwhelmed with gratitude for things God was doing in my life. I was continually thanking Him because I was amazed at all He was doing. There was one particular night I was laying in my bed and I was praying and thanking Him for all He was doing and how thankful I was that everything was falling into place in my life. He clearly spoke back to me and said, “things are not falling into place.” I knew immediately what He meant. He continued to speak to me.

It was a time where I failed. It’s hard to admit to the world that I failed. But I did. I was at a place where life as I knew it completely changed. I felt I would never recover. I felt I would never stop hurting. I felt that my life would be a struggle from that point forward. I felt I damaged so many relationships to the point of no repair. I felt my business, ministry, my passions were destroyed. It was hard to feel one ounce of hope. I found it hard to pray in the midst of this. I was in such a state of despair it was hard to find the words. And I didn’t feel worthy enough.

As I struggled through the days, God began to show Himself. So many people, rallied around me to keep me going. I learned the goodness of people like I’ve never known. These people weren’t judging me. They truly displayed the heart of Jesus by loving me, encouraging me daily, and doing things to help me move forward. These are true friends and God placed them all around me during this time. They were God’s instruments in my life, saving me.

God miraculously provided for me, every step of the way, to get me back on my feet in very big ways. I was blown away because I failed, yet He was doing all of this anyway....without me even asking Him. There were days that He would do something so huge and so obvious, that all I could do was weep. In a matter of 4 days, as I was trying to move into a rental house, EVERYTHING that I needed for my home was given to me, and the deposit and first month’s rent was paid anonymously. I was also bombarded with gift cards, etc. to go shop for my new home. I’ve never been so overcome and overwhelmed by God’s goodness and love in my entire life! But He didn’t stop there. He began to bless my business/ministry like crazy! My business increased in 2 months more than it had in 2 years! The relationships that I felt were damaged to no repair have been restored. And the hurt I carried in my heart....God began to heal. God’s love has never been so “big”, so “strong”, and so “loud”.

His mercy is truly amazing. As soon as my life began to fall apart, He came rushing to me, threw His arms around me, held me so TIGHT, and told me He was taking care of me and that I was loved so much. He intentionally....with every worry, every situation, every need, every hurt....took care of each and every thing without me even asking. And He’s still doing that. There is a song that spoke volumes to me during this time. Some of the words are this....”Ended up on a crossroads. Trying to figure out which way to go. Feels like you’re stuck on a treadmill running in the same place. You’ve got your hazard lights on now, hoping that somebody would slow down. Praying for a miracle. Who’ll show you grace? Had a couple of dollars and a quarter tank of gas for that long journey ahead. Then you see a truck pull over. God sent an angle to help you out. He gave you direction, showed you how to read a map for that long journey ahead. He said ‘it ain’t ever over, even in the midst of doubt. Life is worth living, so live another day....the meaning of forgiveness. People make mistakes. Only God can judge you. Life is worth living again.’ What I get from my reflection is a different perception from what the world may see. They try to crucify me. I ain’t perfect or deny, my reputation’s on the line, but I’m working on a better me. Life is worth living, so live another day...the meaning of forgiveness. People make mistakes. But life is worth living again.”

So, as I laid in bed praying that night and thanking God...listening to Him speak to me....He said exactly this.... “things are not falling into place. I AM PUTTING THEM IN PLACE. This is intentional Kellye. Now you know for the first time in your life how much I really love you. You have always felt you had to work and strive for my love. This time in your life was the perfect time to show you my love for you where you could finally understand it and feel the depth of it.

I love you with a passionate love.”

I can truly testify that no matter what happens in your life, God will always be there if you love Him. He knew my heart and knew that I never stopped loving Him. I became distant in my relationship with Him and allowed room for failure. That didnt stop Him from pursuing me. The minute my life seemed to be falling apart, He was right there. That is an almighty love that we can rest in. It is an unconditional, passionate love. It is hope, mercy, peace, guidance, forgiveness, tenderness, compassion....it is our Father. Never lose hope no matter what life brings....even when you feel you’ve failed. He will show you that life IS worth living again. And He will make sure that you are whole and healed!

Columnist: Kellye Davis Williams

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Kellye Davis Stellman is a personal trainer, gym owner, and certified Life Coach who focuses on the health and well being of her clients as well as coaching them to make positive changes that will impact the rest of their lives.  She helps them achieve their health and fitness goals as well as encourages them to strive for and achieve their “life goals” with her message of hope. 

Kellye resides in East Atlanta with her husband Keith.  She has 4 daughters and 3 grandchildren.  She is an active member of The Tabernacle Church.  In her spare time she loves traveling, spending time with her husband and daughters, shopping, and simply enjoying coffee with friends. 

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