Thursday, 29 October 2020

M Michele's Musings

24 Hours of Pure Turmoil For Naught

Have you ever made a mistake that left you in a turmoil?  In my work, we constantly have deadlines that are due for one reason or another.  They are very important to meet.  Recently we had a deadline for a specific matter.  I thought I had finalized and submitted the required paperwork months back only to discover that was not the case.   My boss received an email and asked me to double check the status. When I went on the site I discovered the deficiency.  I panicked!  The deadline for submitting the documents was long gone.  With a sickening feeling in the pit of my stomach I hurriedly reviewed the file, my notes, and documents to see if I could discover what had gone wrong. 

With no answers, tears threatening to spill and with complete dread of heart I called my boss and spilled the beans. He was way calmer than I and suggested that I not panic yet, just call the administrators and speak with someone about the matter.  I called and was forced to leave a message for a return call.  It was early Monday morning and for the next 24 hours I was catapulted into a living nightmare.  Worry, disquiet and turmoil enveloped my heart almost every moment of the day and even throughout the restless, sleepless night hours.Though I fervently prayed, the apprehension seemed to outweigh and even worm its way into my thoughts,causing my mind to race with seemingly hundreds of awful scenarios.

The next morning as I drove to work my stomach was still tied up in knots, my throat felt closed, my heart was racing and my thoughts were wild.  Fear was escalating and seemed to encompass my whole being.  I found it difficult to pray and apprehension superseded all else. That morning I kept waiting for a return call to no avail.  Finally, my boss, still advising me to not worry, suggested I call again rather than waiting for a call back.  Thankfully, this time my call was answered.  Though I tried hard to stay calm and keep my anxiety at bay, all the pent up feelings and held back tears just poured out like a flood on the poor manas I explained my dilemma. I know the guy must have thought I was crazy.  Thankfully though, he was kind and understanding.  He assured me that mostmistakes could be rectified and then he looked into the issue.  Hecould see that the documentswere uploaded timely and explained one final step had been missed.  The “submit” button had not been hit.  To this day I don’t know how I missed the final step.He guided me through correcting the issue and the documents were submitted with no problem. As we ended our conversation he encouraged me saying, my mistake was minor and they had far worse issues and that if something like that ever happened again, to not let the worry overwhelm, but just keep calling until I got through so they could fix any future issues I might have.  

I can’t explain the immense relief I felt when I got off the phone.  My heart was full of buoyancy.  The knots in my stomach and tightness in my throat were both gone.  I no longer feltsluggish from a sleepless night.  I was fully awake, filledwith joy and giggles all bubbling up inside.  I felt as if I was walking on air and skipping through a sun filled field full of beautiful golden flowers.  The haunting fear of losing my job was completely gone.  In contrast to how I felt, I emailed my boss calmly with three simple words, “All is Well!”

When I thought about everything afterwards, I had deep recriminations about how the enemy had such a heyday in my thoughts.   You would think that after years of walking with the Lord that I wouldn’t have let myself get into such a turmoil and it was all for naught!  The Bible encourages us to, “Be anxious for nothing, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.”   Philippians 4:6“Cast all your anxiety on Him, because He cares for you.” 1 Peter 5:7  I obviously let worry get the better of me.  Jesus could have told me the very same thing He told Martha in Luke 10:41, “Michele, Michele, you are worried and upset about many things.”

Worry never helps and most always paints a more horrible outcome than what actually ends up being experienced.  “Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?”  Matthew 6:27  Worrynever giveseven one ounce of good to us and most certainly steals our peace and joy.   Thankfully, even though we make mistakesthat seem overwhelming to us at the time, and even when those mistakes balloon into full out worrying and turmoil, God has everything under control.  God’s word assures us that every mistake (all things) can be turned around.“And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.” Romans 8:28  His abundance of love, forgiveness and care always supersedes our failures and His plan for our lives surpasses all that the enemy may design.   “For I know the plans I have for you, declares the LORD, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, to give you a future and a hope.”  Jeremiah 29:11

The age old adage “this too shall pass” is true.  No circumstance in which we find ourselves will last forever.  It is when we worry that makesdifficulties seem bigger and worse than they are.   Over and over again, in hindsight, we realize how foolish our fears and worries were once we have walked through and overcome the trying and difficult times.  When despair wants to overtake because of our own mistakes or because of hard circumstances that we are walking through, let us be mindful that He can  and will eventually turn “our mourning into dancing; He peels off our sackcloth and clothsus with joy.” Psalm 30:11   The Bible reminds us that “Weeping may stay the night, but joy comes in the morning.” Psalm 30:5 Even when we fail and worry gets the best of us, God is God.  He loves us.  He is faithful.  He is our hope.  Yes, it is sad but true: We are human and imperfect, we will not always have the best responses, we will worry, make mistakes and fail at timesand that is the exact reason we needed a Savior.Praise Be To God,He gave us his beautiful Son, Jesus Christ, as the propitiation for our sins (failures, mistakes, missing the mark).  He is always there to pick up the pieces, keep us safe in His protection and care and turn things around for our good and His glory.  “Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.” Isaiah 41:10

“Be anxious for nothing, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.  And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus” Philippians 4:6-7

 Love in Christ, Michele

Columnist: Michele Abshire

 

Michele Abshire is a housewife, mother, grandmother, and full time legal assistant. She has been published in Lake Charles, Louisiana publications, Christian Star Newspaper and Gumbeaux Magazine.  

Michele began writing notes of encouragement to people God put on her heart which led her in the direction of writing short encouraging stories, letters, essays and analogies.  This quickly became a ministry for her.  

Michele's vision is to reach people with encouraging messages that will lift their heart and bring joy for sorrow and hope for discouragement. Michele enjoys your feedback so leave a comment in the form at the bottom of the page or email her at  micheles.musings@gmail.com

 

 

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