Wednesday, 16 October 2019

M Michele's Musings

Entirely Faithful

EntirelyFaithful MAbshireLife has been extremely difficult of late.  If something could go wrong it did.  Murphy’s Law seemed to be nipping at my heels fast and hard.  The hardest part was fighting the negative thoughts that were bombarding me from every angle.  It was almost as if I had a little devil on my shoulder talking in my ear, “God doesn’t love you, God doesn’t care” and worse yet, “God has failed you, He has abandoned you.”  Additionally, I felt betrayed by God because it seemed that one specific, very important prayer, fell on deaf ears..  Then, to make things worse, memories of a similar situation long ago rose within my heart to torment me all over again. This added more hurt to an already wide-open wound.  Though I hope no one could tell, inside, I was drowning in despair; stifling despair so deep that it weighed heavily upon my very soul.  I KNEW in my heart that it was all lies.  I KNEW the attacks were from the enemy of my soul who wanted me to quit and give up.  Yet there I was, struggling with hopelessness, barely able to drag myself through each day.  Every moment tears stood ready and waiting to spill at the slightest provocation.

The biggest issue was the feelings of betrayal that were trying to overtake and stamp out God’s word in my heart.  You would think I would know all the lessons by now and that I would be stronger in Him and in His might.  In truth, I felt like Twila Paris in her song, The Warrior is a Child.  I had just finished writing the story on the Saint’s loss, the sovereignty of God and His great love for us.  My own words came back to chide me, He is sovereign and despite what some may believe, I believe God is working to some end, right smack dab in the middle of everything, even a football game.”   Indeed, I KNEW that if God chose not to answer a heartfelt prayer though I thought it was the twelfth hour then He had another plan.  His plan is perfect. He will provide in the midst. 

Despite all the recent chaos God has been faithful.   He has brought hope to counter the sense of hopelessness in other amazing ways.  The night before the first day of spring, I was driving on my way home from church.  The moon was huge, full and bright orange.  It seemed to fill and light up the dark evening sky.  Immediately, I was reminded of a scripture in Psalms where the sun and the moon were His faithful witnesses in the sky; a poignant reminder that God is faithful in my situation.  I was lost in His love and the moon’s beauty all the way home.   The very next morning I was on my way to work and when I turned in a westerly direction there was the moon, as big and as bright as the night before.  In my rear-view mirror, the sun with all its vibrant glorious red and gold hues filled the sky in the east directly even with the moon.  I have never seen that in my life.  It was beautiful and wonderous.  Again, I was reminded of His faithfulness and that He goes before me and behind me. 

Through all this, God was pointing me toward scriptures to minister to my heart.  On my birthday, the heading for the journal reading that day was Genesis 9:13, “I have placed my bow in the clouds, and it will be a sign of the covenant between me and the earth.”  The story centered on God’s covenant promises and encouragement that the writer received through a double rainbow.  My tears freely fell.  I was in amazement that on my birthday there was a reading that matched promises that God had been planting in my heart for a long time.  The promises were a timely reminder that I was in covenant with Him through my relationship with Jesus.  It was the perfect birthday gift!   As if to reiterate the journal reading, the following rain filled days showed forth spectacular rainbows gracing the sky.  To boot, cloudy days were pierced through every nook cranny and crevice with brilliant rays of light.  His splendor displayed!  Only God can paint such pictures.  I was reminded that EVERYTHING is filtered through His fingers of love.   Just as Satan could not touch Job without God’s permission, nothing can touch me (or you) apart from God allowing it to touch us.  Though God has seemingly allowed all pandemonium to touch my life in recent months, I KNOW, every bit of it is filtered through His love.   

While reading my daily scriptures, Psalms 89:8 (NLT) jumped out at me and has captivated me ever since, “O LORD God of Heaven’s Armies! Where is there anyone as mighty as you, O LORD? You are entirely faithful.”  I haven’t been able to shake “You are entirely faithful” from my thoughts.  The numerous and wonderful synonyms for “entirely” have left me blessed beyond imagination; God is completely, absolutely, wholly, fully, totally, altogether, utterly, quite, unreservedly, in all respects, without reservation, to the core, all the way, without exception, thoroughly, perfectly, downright, to the hilt and one hundred percent faithful! 

Psalms 89:8, in most Bible versions, seems to give awareness that God’s faithfulness surrounds him.  Faithfulness is innate in His character and it is all encompassing of just who He is.  I love the KJV version, “O LORD God of hosts, who is a strong LORD like unto thee? or to thy faithfulness round about thee?”   When I read “round about thee” it was if God was reassuring me that He was all around me with His faithfulness.  He is my protection and shield.  His faithfulness extends to each and every one of us, His children.  

When I finally decided to pen my thoughts on paper, my last bit of research was to search for the scripture verses He had reminded me of on that first day of spring.  There they lay, hidden treasure, in the midst of Psalms 89, “His seed shall endure forever, and his throne as the sun before me. It shall be established for ever as the moon, and as a faithful witness in heaven. Selah.” Psalms 89:36-37   When I realized the scriptures were in Psalms 89 as was verse 8, I wept in absolute amazement.  Though I had no inkling, God alone knew that these scriptures He was revealing to me in the past two months were all contained in Psalms 89, a psalm filled with praise to God for His love, mercies, faithfulness and covenant promises!  I don’t believe this was coincidence.  No, it was absolutely and unequivocally “God-incidence.” His awesome grace and miracles touched my life to bring hope to a desperate and heartbroken soul. 

I am in awe and overwhelmed with God’s amazing love for me.  Because I am human and imperfect, all the lessons of the past needed to be learned all over again.  And this probably won’t be the last time that I will have to walk through trying times.  In truth, we will all go through things that throw us for a loop and send us in a tizzy.  It is good to know that He has everything under control no matter what is bombarding us.  He is sovereign.  He is on the throne.  He is always on time.  When we don’t understand, we just need to trust His hand and remember that He is ENTIRELY faithful.  Be encouraged!  You are loved by your Beautiful God and Savior, Jesus Christ.

Love in Christ, Michele

Copyright May 2019 ~ Michele LeDoux Abshire

Columnist: Michele's Musings

Picture Michele Abshire is a housewife, mother, grandmother, and full time legal assistant. She has been published in Lake Charles, Louisiana publications, Christian Star Newspaper and Gumbeaux Magazine.  

Michele began writing notes of encouragement to people God put on her heart which led her in the direction of writing short encouraging stories, letters, essays and analogies.  This quickly became a ministry for her.  

Michele's vision is to reach people with encouraging messages that will lift their heart and bring joy for sorrow and hope for discouragement. Michele enjoys your feedback so leave a comment in the form at the bottom of the page or email her at  micheles.musings@gmail.com

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